I just love old rock.

Wow seriously I'm so obsessed right now with guns and roses its jut so addictive. It's a shame how music is not just the same as it used to be all the britney crap, trance music, reggae all that shit.. that is "in" now can just go ahead and fuck off.. Who care about that stupid music all singing about the same sex and love and why You dont love me back or wow.. You're leaving me. All dramatic, all emo who the fuck cares? Of course all people that follow trends and ignore a personal stylem, seriously. At least music in the 60-80's had a meaning, they would protest. It meant something, It was freedom, they had values, they had the need to express themselves against all the opression of the war and shit that was making the world be messed up.. now it's just so sad. Music has no meaning anymore, is just a trend and then it fades away and is hidden in the deepest, darkest past. That's it unlike.. some good music like the beatles, ramones, pink floyd, guns a roses those are actually very good examples. Their music is still alive and is able to touch peoples hearts. It's just amazing. I know that was not our time, but come on you should try to taste some little bits of real music. It was simple and uncomplicated. I was music. Just music.. you would just let it flow and enjoy it.

I am..

I am an exquisite human being constantly judged by our miserable society or those whom we call friends. I've done things I am not proud of, I've betrayed people who love me, yet I don't love them back and what is worst is that just forgot how to feel.
The lack of emotions i'm living now it's not normal, I am constantly scared, but I no loger feel. I'm stuck on fear and I can't hold it back. I wanna feel like a real person, just the way he made me feel that cold evening in which I betrayed everything I once believed on, but it just felt so esquisite that I don't regret, I just don't.
I would do it again, he made me feel like a real woman, object of desire and lust it was amazing, it was the forbiden fruit of all times that who might've never been touched before. Just thinking about it makes me shriver and gives me goosebumps and turns a fire one me. I wanna feel like that every single day of my life. Exquisite.

Regardless of everything I've been through, I love being me. Even thought people thinks opposite, they're wrong. I've done bad things, things I'm NOT proud but yet I would do them again, they might talk, 'cuz trust me they will, but I've reached to a point where I no longer care the opinion of anyone anymore.

They are not me. They don't feel what I feel, they dont figh what I fight. They hate me yet they love me, hypocrites! I' am me whether they like it or not.

something.

"For what it's worth: it's never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again."

-"The Curious Case of Benjamin Button"